Sawyer came out of his bath (obviously naked) and started dancing because Daddy was playing guitar.
I expected to take a video of his naked dancing.
This is what I got:
A baby turns your life completely upside down in some ways. It hasn't been the expenses or the scheduling or anything like that. All of those are things I'm good at- multitasking, budgeting, etc. For me, the changes came from not knowing what to expect. I'm not so good at that part. I really really *really* like to be in control. I expected a fabulous, "I feel so womanly", beautiful pregnancy. I got the opposite. I expected the epidural to work. It didn't. I expected Sawyer to sleep through the night (or at least four hours straight) at say, six months. It took 51 weeks. I expected that breastfeeding would be obvious. He never accepted me, and I had to pump for.ever. and feed him through a bottle. The list could go on and on. I expected to be able to sit at a restaurant for thirty minutes eating peacefully as a family. Yeah. Not going to happen. I expected I would always have patience and love and grace for this mini-me. I expected to have all answers, I expected he wouldn't throw fits in the grocery stores, in church, at the babysitter's, in the middle of dinner, etc.
I expected a naked dancing video. I got poop on the carpet...
...and I got a priceless, hilarious video of my absolutely precious, amazing, unexpected Sawyer. Same for everything above. A lot of it is a little grosser, a little more fun, and a little crazier than what I expected. Am I right?
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